I hope I get this post up before Midnight but even if I don't I think it still counts as a Thursday post since I started it at 11:33!
OBVIOUSLY (since I haven't posted in a week) it's been a BUSY week!
That is mostly due to playing catch up all week! This weekend I led a small group of 10 through 12th grade girls at DNow here in Cleveland. Then the Super Bowl was Sunday and I neglected my homework for additional three or so hours to watch that glorious victory! GO PACKERS! Theeeeeen, I pulled an all nighter! No, no...I slept an hour from 4 A.M. to 5 A.M. and got up for my exercise class
I want to share something with you, friends. This weekend was very difficult and extremely awesome!
An hour before I was supposed to leave for the DNow, my mama called to inform me that my daddy was in the ICU in Southaven. My daddy has been in and out of the hospital for the past few years and he has a very weak immune system so when everyone was passing around the flu around my family it was not good news. Mama made the stubborn man go to the doctor and the doctor made him get in ambulance to go to the hospital...he had kidney failure, dehydration, and extremely low blood pressure.
"Mama, I'm coming home RIGHT now!"
"No, you're not. I already called Jonathan and he will bring you home if I absolutely need you to come."
She was worried about the weather I suppose.
So, I cried...and prayed, and tried to give to God, and fought, and cried and prayed.
Then, I went to the DNow and we started with a leader meeting in which we were supposed prepare to lead. Worship, pray, get right. I was in shambles..."God, how am I going to lead at all if I can't hold it together? I am supposed to be super spiritual and strong for these girls. And even if I do calm down, how am I going to focus? I shouldn't be here."
This is the response I got:
"Yes, Amber, You should be here because that means you kind of trust me. Now really trust me and believe that I you can't do anything about what is going on. Recognize that this is a test of faith. Let me be God. Embrace the peace I am offering you."
Convulsing with tears,
Deep Breath. Long Exhale. Relaxed shoulders. Wave of tranquility.
"Seriously?"
God: "Yes, seriously. And don't try to be spiritual. You are spiritual. Be real."
I am not absolutely sure, but I like to believe that those girls appreciated me staying despite what was going on because I truly believed that I was supposed to be with them for a reason. Whether that was because something was supposed to happen between us or I just need to exemplify what trusting God looks like..I am glad I stayed because I am not sure I have ever trusted God like I did this weekend. It's grand! I plan on doing it more often, like every day! I also highly recommend it!
My daddy stayed in the ICU the whole time I was leading at the DNow...He got moved to a step down unit Sunday when it was over...He was released the day before yesterday...I am going home tomorrow. I can't wait to see my parents! It's been three weeks. Thanks for letting me share my God is awesome moment with you...I know I have been a blog slacker lately. I will try to post this weekend to make up for it. Do you forgive me?
Well I didn't post in time for it to still be Thursday but Happy Friday (even better)!!!
Blogging My Battles and Blessings,
Amber Marie
1 comment:
Whew. Trusting Him is a hard thing, but we are so blessed when we do. Keep working on it, friend!
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