Honesty: Round Two

Hey Reader-Friends,

I decided to be pretty up front with my previous post. Up for some more

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I suck at getting along with my man. I suck at having patience with my family members. Sometimes I avoid my friends.

I know I just made myself sound like a tall glass of sunshine. #notreally

There is nothing wrong with my man; there is nothing wrong with my family; nor my friends. Without these people in my life, I would lose it! Companionship is a wonderful, precious gift from God. Here is why I finally came to the point that I could openly admit to the above confessions: I have dug up the roots of these feelings and the way to fix the issues.

You see, relationship equals security for so many people, especially woman. You know the girl that doesn’t know how to exist without a boyfriend? I’ve been her before. But for me, I took that form of insecurity to a whole different level. Not only do I want all these aforementioned relationships to exist in my life, but I want them to exist the way I want them. For example, I want Jon to romance me with all the dates and presents I have selfishly dreamed up in my head, which are usually based off of the coveted relationships all around me. Now, I know that Jon is 3,390% man, not quite the Romeo, but he loves me simply and surely. I have been with the boy for over five years and I chose to love him despite our different versions of romance, so what gives me the right to be frustrated with him when he doesn’t fulfill all my hopes and desires? The same goes for my relationships with my friends and family…

God instructed us in Isaiah 2:22, to “Stop trusting in man”!

While companionship, especially between lovers is meant for support and enjoyment, it is not source from which people are to draw all their worth, their sole happiness, or dependency.

This is one of my ultimately favorite verses:

God is not a man that he should lie,nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and fulfill?

Numbers 23: 19

Hello? That means I have someone that will never disappoint me? Well, hot-dog!

Seriously, friends, I’m working on cutting all the people in my life a break. They are not perfect on purpose. And for the record, Jon gives me his best and that’s what counts when I put my sinful selfishness aside. I’m a truly blessed lady. I have loving boyfriend, caring family, and very special friends!

Above all, I have a God that I can depend on, that will keep me safe no matter what, shower me gifts and blessing, and provide me with just what I need in my life.