Top of the Monday, to ya, Reader-Friends.
I noticed something while in church yesterday: little girls hang. What do I mean by that? They have a tendency to desperately wrap their limbs around the waists, legs, or arms of their parents. One little girl in front of me had her innocent stare locked on her mother’s singing face for a few minutes, barely blinking before she enthusiastically threw her arms around her mother’s side. As I shifted my eyes from them to the words on the projector screen, I couldn’t help but notice another little blond head resting on her father’s hip.
Why am I sharing these observations with you? Because don’t you see it, ladies (and yes, gentlemen too, please notice this)? Females are obviously created with a need. You can even realize it in little girls—a need for attention and for affection. I realize these needs are on different levels of intensity for everyone, but can’t we all admit we do need? These needs are some of the most frustrating aspects in my life. Why? Because satisfaction is hard to come by. For awhile I started to believe their was something wrong with me, that I craved too much affection. Observing those little girls, though, showed me that it’s really just part of being of woman. And being a part of anything means I was created a certain way. And being created a certain way means I was done so by a creator and for a reason.
If you spend anytime in the book of Genesis in the Bible, you will pick up on the fact that we were created to have an affectionate fellowship with God, yet sin hindered the perfection of that situation. We were made to give our worship to God and to be given affection by God. By no means am I saying that those little girls were worshiping their parents, but the expressions on their faces, the twinkle in their eyes reminded me of such devotion. Why is it so hard to look up at our heavenly father the way we looked up at our earthly daddys when we were children—how we look to our boyfriend, spouse, or lover today?
I don’t know your reasons. I know mine have to do with wanting flesh for my flesh—I cannot see God, so I have a hard time allowing him to embrace me. There is honesty for you. However, his embrace is very achievable. I have felt it before, there are women I know that live in it, but I struggle with my flesh a great deal and I haven’t made the spirit’s arms my resting place. I still crave assurance, affection, security, love, and attention from people…especially men.
Is anyone else at this point in their journey? We could talk to each other. We could pray for each other. Send me an email @ yourfriendamber@yahoo.com
Has anyone successfully found satisfaction in the Father’s arms? Share your story. Give us some encouragement!
7 comments:
Calli suggested this song for us to sing Wed. night - I thought you might like it today:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2j0rYJI37yg
Hallelujah, What a Savior
I'm right there with you. It's so hard to truly, truly REST in Him.
I get where you are coming from of course. But, I think he shines through things you don't realize until that moment comes. Plus, he guides people to you to embrace you and show affection. Hugs <3
Girlfriend. I could have written this post. You pretty much summed up my feelings 100%. So DO NOT think you are alone for one second.
i totally understand this post. :) i'm always continually learning how to trust & rest on the Lord first of all.
You are so not alone. I truly am right there with you girlie. It is a struggle and big obstacle speaking for myself. I will be praying for you and if you need anything , I'm an email away!
WOW!!! what a blessing to find your blog. It's so nice to see a fellow christian with whom it appears I have much in common. In response to todays post, I can truly relate!!! Why is it so hard to rest in HIM? especially knowing what great sacrifice he made so that we may have ever lasting life. I guess all I can say is keep pluggin and keep prayin. God Bless you.
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